July 25, 2014

As much as I love Kevene, it kind of bums me out that I’ll be staying in tonight just to watch over her post birthday celebration with her friends. My circle of friends are going out tonight to celebrate Annika’s birthday. I should be there having fun, sipping on alcoholic beverages, probably ordering finger food, having mature conversations with the best company in the world. Instead here I am, inside my room, reading a book while drinking Pepsi Max. I’m pretty sure next Friday is going to be a repeat of today because Kookee’s having a pre birthday celebration with her friends then. I bet my life I’ll be chaperoning that party as well.

I hope Jaybee comes over. I need to talk to someone my age or else I’ll explode. I want to talk about the business ideas I’ve been coming up with the past week. I also just miss my boyfriend. I want to spend more time with him. We don’t talk that much lately and we barely see each other because of his bar reviews. I look forward to Sunday dinners with him.

The lights on the living room are turned off. Maybe I should check on them. Yes. I probably should.

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  • 3 days ago

July 24, 2014

I am stuffed. Kevene is celebrating her birthday dinner with the family here at our house. Kuya Bong prepared his famous kare-kare and bagoong with chicharon. Perhaps starting my diet today was a bad idea as I’m having trouble controlling myself from devouring the absolutely scrumptious chocolate cake lying less than 2 meters away from me. Control yourself, Janel. You can do this. Just try not to eat the whole cake and you’re all set.


I gave Kevene an 18k gold plated initial necklace for her 16th birthday and she loved it. Thank you StyleHood for the fast and hassle free transaction! Follow them on Instagram @stylehood.

Our cat is going crazy due to the increased amount of individuals in our living room. She keeps on hissing at everyone, myself included. She needs to get used to people because Kevene’s friends are coming over tomorrow for a post birthday celebration. They tend to get really noisy and they dance a lot.

I can’t concentrate because of the cake. It’s calling out to me. I think I’ll give in. Just one slice.

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  • 4 days ago

July 23, 2014

I can’t wait to give Kevene the gold K necklace I got her weeks ago for her birthday tomorrow. I had a hard time wrapping it and decided to just go simple. It’s hard to believe that she’s turning 16. I have tons of videos of her being a kid and being silly as hell. I remember my 16th birthday. I hosted a slumber party at our old house in Sun Valley and some of my friends got really wasted. I made reply slips as invites to my “surprise” birthday party. It stated that while there will be alcohol, only those who will be sleeping over will be allowed to drink. I didn’t want them drinking with me then going out and being irresponsible someplace else. I planned everything by myself. I really like planning events. I really like planning in general. I’ve learned to accept that things don’t always go as planned but it doesn’t take away the happy feeling I get whenever I plan something.

It’s just a few minutes after 9 in the evening but my eyes are starting to feel tired. I should probably take this as a sign to sleep early tonight. I’m planning on fixing my messed up sleeping pattern. See? I really like planning. I plan a lot. I guess it’s time to take action. Good night and I hope to write more tomorrow.

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  • 5 days ago

July 22, 2014

Last night was fun. I missed hanging out with my friends. I’ve been stuck at home for so long because of the renovation and other things that I’ve barely seen them in the past month or so. Steph left a little after midnight and Lio went home sometime after lunch today. He fell asleep on the floor while watching That Awkward Moment. I didn’t bother waking him up because he looked so peaceful. He had his folded arms tucked under his chin and he was actually smiling while sleeping. I thought of all the nights he had to stay up because of his job as a make-up artist and decided to let him have his much deserved rest.


I left a note for Lio before I went to bed. I woke up and found he left a note for me too. I couldn’t stop laughing when I read it.

He came back tonight because Hapee and Rica are coming over. I’ve barely seen those two for the past month because of our schedules and the crazy weather. The four of us had dinner at Rap’s at Taft and then went back home to watch The Other Woman. We just finished watching it and I thought it was totally cliché but it made me laugh so it’s all good. I’m glad I got to spend today with this bunch. Hapee and Rica just left. Hapee has work while Rica lives far away and it’s getting late. Lio’s staying for another movie. 

Rica’s celebrating her 24th birthday in 2 weeks and she’s planning on having a Disney themed party. She’s going as Ariel from The Little Mermaid and I have decided to compliment her by going as Ursula. I’m thinking of going as a chic Ursula though. What do you think? 

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  • 6 days ago

July 21, 2014

I am still fazed by the fact that I am not a teenager anymore. I know, I know. It’s been almost 5 years since I was last considered a teenager. I just can’t believe that so many things has happened to pretty much everyone in my life. A lot of my friends have changed and mostly for the better. Everyone’s growing up… physically, emotionally, mentally. It’s amazing how people come to be who they are and where they are now.

Lio and Steph are here with me at this exact moment and we just did some major catching up. Lio’s making rounds in the make-up industry and Steph is now the COO of a new beauty pageant, Miss Global Philippines. We are currently watching the film Neighbors and have 2 more movies lined up for tonight. 


Photo taken from Lio’s Instagram stream.

I think I’ll be up all night tonight. I better stop writing now and start watching. Sorry for another crappy ending. I’ll do better next time.

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  • 1 week ago

July 20, 2014

This is going to be short. This will probably be my shortest entry ever. It’s just that nothing much happened today. I woke up, had dinner, took a shower, went grocery shopping with Jaybee, went back home, and here I am. I don’t have anything else to share. I have no thoughts begging for release. I’m just blank.

I think I’ll go watch Season 4 of How I Met Your Mother with Kookee. I hope by tomorrow I’ll have something nice to write about.

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July 19, 2014

Jaybee and I were supposed to have early dinner at Ikkoryu Fukuoka Ramen at SM Aura but we took a wrong turn and ended up at Tuscany, McKinley Hill. Our craving for ramen was really strong so we decided to try out Ukokkei Ramen Ron. The place looked ordinary, nothing special about it at all. As we were browsing the menu, Jaybee gave me a look and I immediately knew we shared the same negative thoughts about the restaurant. We were really hungry so we decided to go for it anyways. Ukokkei Ramen Ron taught us not to judge a restaurant by its ambience. The food was spectacular! I had Tantanmen and Jaybee tried their Ukokkei Miso Chasu.


Tantanmen at Ukokkei Ramen Ron. I am definitely going back there for more of this!

It’s safe to say that Jaybee and I were pleasantly surprised by the quality and serving size of the food at Ukokkei Ramen Ron. We are definitely coming back. We finished eating at around 7 in the evening and decided to head to Greenbelt for dessert. We settled for a large pomegranate yogurt with strawberries, kiwis, mangoes, and dragon fruit at Pinkberry. Kookee and Kevene happened to be around the area with their friend Ren so we decided to just go home together. 

After dropping Ren off at her house, we learned that Mama wasn’t home yet so we went to Jaybee’s place instead. Joey invited us over because he bought 3 kilos of ribs and had no one to share them with. I can still taste the juicy goodness that settled inside my belly not more than 15 minutes ago. It was heavenly. I don’t think I’ve been this full since Father’s Day. I wanted to devour more of those tasty ribs but my stomach couldn’t handle it anymore. Too bad.


Joey’s tasty ribs. That didn’t sound right.

All the positive energy inside my body went flying out the window the moment I entered our house. Our cat pooped outside her litter box and the smell was awful! What’s worse is that she did it in 2 different areas! I chased her around with a broom and it was only when I managed to bop her head did I start cleaning her crap. The floor is all clean now so I guess I can forgive her already. 

I’m still stuffed from the ribs so I’ll just lie down and be an absolute pig. I won’t even bother to find a good way to end this entry. 

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  • 1 week ago

July 18, 2014

Everybody looks forward to Fridays. It signals the end of work week and the start of the weekend. Most of my Fridays are spent hanging out with my close circle of friends and/or my boyfriend. We’d usually hang out at home, have dinner and a few drinks at some bar, or have fun singing karaoke. This Friday is pretty different though. Jaybee’s out with his lawyer friends doing some much needed catching up while my friends are having a blast at Cagayan De Oro, at Hazel’s place. I was supposed to go with them but due to the house renovation that still isn’t done, I’m obliged to stay at home to manage the revamping.

Kookee had friends over this afternoon and it was fun listening in to their conversation. I didn’t mean to, of course, but I couldn’t help it given that I was barely 4 meters away from them. I tried my best to distract myself by reading a book but some of their stories were really interesting and absolutely entertaining. I had to hold my tongue a couple of times to refrain from giving unsolicited advice. They make me feel old. My best friend Hapee and I used to talk all day about pretty much everything Kookee and her friends talked about today. We used to talk about boys and homeworks and new friendships we’ve made in college. Now we talk about bills and the next steps we plan on taking regarding our careers and other aspects of our lives. It’s amazing how just a couple of years ago, Hapee and I were doodling our names with random surnames on our notebooks, hoping to bag a decent boyfriend. Now here we are, in stable and healthy relationships. 

Reminiscing about our college years tend to make me feel like I’m 74 already. I wonder how I’ll feel when I actually reach that age, if ever I do. I hope I do. But then, feeling old because of the years past doesn’t really make me old, does it? It just makes me older. I can’t resign myself to this, to feeling like so much has happened in my life for me to feel tired when in reality there’s much much more to look forward to. During our mid-20s, we tend to reminisce a lot about the good days, we forget to create more good days. We forget that while we aren’t teens anymore, we’re still young and capable of having more adventures to talk to about when we reach our 40s. And when we get to our 40s? We go forward and continue to create tales that we will share when we reach our 60s.

Life only goes forward and we only live once. We must always remember that whatever our age might be, whatever responsibilities we might have, we’ve got to keep creating stories, for these stories are what makes up our lives. These are the stories we tell our future children, and they pass it on to their children and so on and so forth. But most of all, these are the stories that feed our souls when we’re old and hungry. These are the stories we tell ourselves, remind ourselves of when we’re lost or when we’ve forgotten. These are the stories that we look back on and make us feel that every single drop of blood, sweat ,and tears that we shed is all worth it. Let’s all make beautiful stories, shall we?

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July 17, 2014

I just got home from an awfully tiring day. I went back and forth to one of my clients’ office because the people scheduled for fitting today had different shifts. What bums me out is that I have to go back because one of the ladies that needed to fit her blazer today wasn’t there. What’s even more annoying is the fact that she was the one who requested that today be our fitting day because everyone from their work will be at the office. Now I’m going to have to come back to their office some other day just for her.

This is the hard part working as a freelancer, especially when you’re just starting your career. You are the one who has to adjust to your client’s schedule and you have no stable income. Times get tough but I believe it will all be worth it. I don’t want to be 30 and working a job I have zero passion for but pays me well. As cliché as it may sound, it really isn’t about the money. I’ve always wanted to become a fashion designer because I like making people happy and feel good about themselves. I want to become a bridal designer because I want to make women feel really beautiful and special on one of their most memorable days.

I admit, smiles and thank you’s do not put food on the table or pay the bills. It feeds your soul though. It encourages you to become better at your craft, to work harder, and to just keep going. I may not be a household name when it comes to fashion as of yet but I do believe I will get there one day. All I have to do is remember, each and every single day, what I want in life and work hard towards getting it.

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July 16, 2014

I was up all night because of Typhoon Glenda. Her strong winds and heavy rains kept everyone on their toes. Our area is prone to flooding during storms so every now and then I would look out the window to check if water was gathering outside on the streets. It was such a relief that we weren’t visited by flood but the power kept going off and on and off again between 3 to 5 in the morning. It eventually went out for a long time from 7 in the morning and it just came back now, around 8 in the evening.

Due to the fact that we didn’t have power for quite awhile, I haven’t seen photos or videos of Glenda’s aftermath. I heard she managed to cause a lot of damage with uprooted trees and fallen posts. I don’t know if I actually want to see the destruction this typhoon made but I don’t want to be left unaware while the rest of my nation grieves. I’ll probably start with reading tweets and then checking out photos on Instagram. Then I’ll turn on the television and visit news websites. 

I kept myself busy the past few hours by reading a book while listening to music. Thank heavens for my Kobo and my iPod. I read a book entitled To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before by Jenny Han. Honestly, I didn’t like it. I think it’s shallow and poorly written. Who uses “beotch” and “gawd” in a novel? Why can’t the author just spell it like how it’s supposed to be spelled? Bitch. God. I felt like I was reading fan fiction instead of a published book. I wonder why teenage girls are obsessing over this story. I probably didn’t like it because I couldn’t relate. I’m not 15 and looking for love. Even my 15 year old self won’t appreciate this book. I should probably read A Clash of Kings now. I need a quality book with fine writing and a superb plot to help me get over my last read. Yes. A Clash of Kings sounds like the proper treatment for me.

Tomorrow is going to be one busy day for me. The cancelled fittings for today have been moved to tomorrow instead. I have fittings until 10 in the evening. I’m not a coffee drinker but I’ll probably down a cup or two tomorrow to keep me alive. Good luck to me and good luck to everyone! We all need it.

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July 15, 2014

Today has been pretty uneventful except for the part where Mama and I made our house ready for the arrival of Typhoon Glenda tomorrow. We charged all the flashlights, went grocery shopping, elevated everything there is to elevate just in case it floods which I hope doesn’t happen. I have several fittings tomorrow and I hope the weather cooperates. I highly doubt it but it won’t stop me from wishing for clear skies tomorrow.


Here’s Lio, Rica, and myself at the PETA Theater.

I find it timely that I watched Rak of Aegis recently. It’s a musical inspired by the songs of local rock band Aegis. The play showcases love, fame, family, and the innate resilience of Filipinos in the face of calamity. It’s a definite must watch starring theater power couple Isay Alvarez-Seña and Robert Seña together with Aicelle Santos. The cast was absolutely amazing and the set was very creative. I like that it rained on stage when the lead character first belted out Basang Basa Sa Ulan. I think people should watch Rak of Aegis simply because it’s relatable. Who doesn’t want to get discovered by Ellen Degeneres? Who doesn’t want to find love? Who doesn’t want to help support their families towards a brighter future? It’s a must watch especially during this season of heavy rains, typhoons, and floods. 

On a totally different note, I am still saddened by the fact that Argentina didn’t win the World Cup this year. The German team were really powerful and consistent but I wanted Messi to add the World Cup to his list of achievements. He seems like such a nice guy and an awesome football player with a really cute baby. I don’t follow football, or sports in general, but I’ve been hooked to the World Cup 2014 since Brazil defeated Chile in penalty shootouts with Julio Cesar emerging as the former’s hero.


That’s me supporting Argentina at Handlebar during the World Cup 2014 finals. I know, I know. I’m not wearing blue.

I watched the final game, Argentina vs. Germany, at Handlebar with my boyfriend the same day I watched Rak of Aegis. Jaybee was dressed in German colors but secretly rooted for Argentina. The whole place was packed with German supporters chanting Deutschland over and over. Argentinian supporters were also present singing some song I don’t know. I assume it’s an Argentinian cheer or maybe their national anthem? I don’t know. I haven’t gone that far into the world of football to be able to memorize or at least identify team cheers and chants. Maybe for the World Cup 2018 I’ll be able to do so. I hope Messi will win the title then. 


My very happy boyfriend.

It’s starting to rain hard already and I’m still not good with endings. I guess this will do for now. Stay safe and always be prepared! 

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And here I am again with another attempt at blogging. This has been my 3rd time to write another first entry for the year 2014 alone. I always tell myself that I’ll start writing to document whatever happens in my everyday life and to sort out the jumble of thoughts raging inside my head. I start blogs but then I give up by the 4th or 5th entry. I don’t know if I’ll give up again but I will try my hardest not to. I’m turning 25 in 40 days and I can’t even remember what happened to me these last few years. When I think of yesterday, I think of myself as an 18 year old Fashion Design and Merchandising major slaving on patterns, sketches, and dresses due the next week. Time is flying by far too fast and I’m having trouble looking back and appreciating all the things, all the moments, all the people that brought me to where I am today. Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful for every little blessing that has happened to me but sometimes, when it’s been far too long, we tend to forget. And I don’t want to forget. This is the reason why I want to write down my thoughts and my feelings… so that I will always remember. 

How about I give you all an introduction? From the many first entries that I’ve written, I introduced myself only once. My name is Janel Gutierrez, 24 years old, freelance fashion designer, 5 feet 1 inch tall, and 150 pounds heavy. I haven’t been considered healthy for a couple of years now. I’m working on getting back to my 25 inch waistline. It’s going to be hard, like writing a decent blog entry everyday, but I’m going to do my best. I love reading books and I cannot survive without music. I have been with my boyfriend for 4 years now and before him, I only had one other relationship that lasted 11 months so I’m not a professional when it comes to love and dating but I’d like to think that I am. I love the beach and I am fascinated with weddings. I think that’s all for now. You’d get know more about me and my life as we go on.

I’m not really good at ending entries. I’m going to have to work on that but for now, let’s end it here. 

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  • 2 weeks ago